I realize I'm not that old, but I'm also not that young. And I'm starting to feel hopeless. I mean does that even make sense??? Finding a Jewish guy who actually wants to date me seems near impossible. During the summer I've been told that my values are fundamentally different thus it will not work [which as it turns out I should have been saying to him], I've been rejected about 4 times off JRetromatch, 1 time the guy didn't even meet me he just declined based on my pic and profile [that's a huge ego booster let me tell you], at the Jewish singles events I seemed to blend into the wall and now, well I get the feeling that I want one thing and he wants another. I just don't understand what men want. Well I do I'm not so naive, but I don't understand why men don't want more then that with me. Or rather why Jewish guys don't. I've been told [attempted brainwash] by my parents that I will have more in common with a Jew, that life will be easier, that they will treat me better [HA]. People say that when I stop looking "he" will come-it's all bull shit. I'm not so desperate [though I realize that posting this will make me seem like I am], more just extremely frustrated. I could just make my life easier but it seems now that my parents values have become mine. Argh!
I'm not posting this because I want pity- that would just make me feel worse.
I'm not posting this so people can tell me 'don't worry, things will look up'- I just don't believe it anymore.
I am posting this because I'm extremely frustrated and now everyone [well 4 ppl who actually read this] will understand my frustration [in case they didn't already].
I have to tell you though, being in this rut makes watching the happy-feel-good-everyone-falls- in-love-and-it-all-works-out-in-the-end bollywood movies really freaking hard to watch [not that it will stop me].
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I second the motion. 30-days, no men, no phone calls, nada. Just concentrate on you and your job and your life.
What happened? Call me.
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