Guyatus- Day 18- Dream or Nightmare

Mujhse Shaadi Karogi (2004)

Nope. I don't think so. Clearly not ready. Why?

So I had a dream last night and why not share it with the world, or the select few who seem to read this blog.

In my dream I was getting married, the details are fuzzy [which is a little annoying, but I can tell you it did not seem to be the bollywood wedding of my dreams]. In any case I was at the alter, all my friends were there, my family and the groom. For some reason I seem to think that he had a face in my dream, but I cannot for the life of me remember who it was or what he looked like.

I remember feeling very happy, I mean I was getting married, this was my wedding. Then he put the ring on my finger, and strangely it didn't fit. I didn't freak out or anything, but it was odd that the ring had not been properly sized considering everything else had been so meticulously planned. Now here's where it gets wierd: at the point where I should be ecstatic about being married, I thought, oh I have to go to work tomorrow, and I will be married and people there will know that I'm married. But I don't want them to know that I'm married. Then I realized that I didn't really want anyone to know that I was married because I didn't really want to be married.

Then I woke up.

I'm not sure what to do with it all at this point; which is probably why I decided to blog this and let others who might be able to interpret dreams let me know what the hell is going on in my head.

I would like to be married at one point in my life, but I think that I shouldn't feel pressured to find that groom. Maybe it's just not really a priority in my life right now, and maybe that's ok. It's not that I was looking for the hubby out there- I was looking for someone who had that potential- but maybe, just maybe I shouldn't even be looking for that right now, in this moment.


My dream was both unsettling and comforting. It is a eureka moments of sorts.